Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Maddie Bea, Age 8

I've worked the hardest for Maddie.  From the moment I conceived and started throwing up for 9 months, to the morning of her birth when I thought my water had broken and it turned out to be blood, to the one billion hundred million hours she fussed instead of sleeping, this girl has been the hardest thing I have ever handled.  I bounced her more, patted her little butt more, and rocked her more than both of my boys combined.  I HAD TO GIVE UP DAIRY FOR HER because it made her the gassiest thing that ever lived. I swore under my breath in the wee hours of the night next to her tender little ear begggggggiiiiiinnnnnggggg her to just sleep for two hours straight in her bassinet and not on my body. I didn't understand what it was all about in those selfish moments of motherhood when I thought I deserved better or easier.  But I know better now.  It's easier to see the positive in retrospect.  From the moment I conceived and started throwing up for 9 months, I was growing the perfect girl human inside of my body.  On the morning of her birth when I thought my water had broken and it turned out to be blood, I experienced the happiest moment of my life when the fetal monitor magnified the healthy little whoosh whoosh whoosh of her fighter's heart. All those one billion hundred million hours she fussed instead of sleeping, we were growing up together.  We struggled together.  We were starting our journey together.  Our lives are forever wrapped up in each other because she is my daughter and I am her Mama and we figured it out.  Together. 
And you guys...YOU GUYS, this girl is perfection.  From her silly crooked toothed smile to her sapphire peepers, she is perfect.  She has the kindest heart, the gentlest spirit, and the very best belly laugh.  She is so much better than I ever hoped for and I feel so blessed to get to watch her grow.  I get to be the subject of her affection and the recipient of her squishy hugs.  I am bursting with gratitude for all she is and all she has taught me about myself.  Happy birthday to my little girl.  You are worth all the hard work and so so much more. Xo







5 comments:

Nuria Pérez Paredes said...

Oh Sarah, what a wonderful post. This part "We struggled together. We were starting our journey together. Our
lives are forever wrapped up in each other because she is my daughter
and I am her Mama and we figured it out. Together. " made my cry lots! I had a long battle fighting for Matilde to be born (was in hospital most pregnancy) so these words were precious to me. Thanks so much for sharing and happy, happy birthday to your beautiful Maddie. She is, indeed, perfect.

Heather. said...

Sarah, this is so, so very sweet.

Happy birthday, Maddie!

sarah said...

Oh Nuria, Thank you! They are so special and worth the fight, aren't they? Your Matilde is just so wonderful too and knowing what you did to bring her into the world makes her even more special! XO

sarah said...

Thank you, Heather!

Nuria Pérez Paredes said...

Thank you Sarah!

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