Sunday, August 25, 2013

Counting Down

I just realized this is our last official week of Summer Vacation.  This is a major deal to me because in one short week, all 3 of my kids will be in school. All 3.  Even the baby.  It'll be the first time in 10 years I will have no children in my house during the day.  My chest is tight just writing that.  I know a lot of parents view this time as one of excitement and can't wait to get their own personal time back.  I'm not ready to have my personal time back.  I am really going to miss my buddies.  I have been told I'll keep busy and I will find a lot of productive things to do, but I just can't get there yet.  My heart isn't ready.  Being Mom is the best gift I've been given and maybe it's because I work outside of my home, but my arms ache for my kids when they're not with me.  When I wait in the pick up line at school, my heart gets all fluttery at the prospect of seeing my little rugrats.  It probably doesn't help that I just turned 35 and my ovaries are almost outdated...that's a different story.

So this week, you can pray for me.  Just send up a request that I will get. it. together already.  And don't ask me about it, because I'll probably get all tearful and dramatic and you'll be annoyed with me.  I'm annoyed with myself.


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